Perspective

I seem to have lost all perspective in my life recently. Some might find it stressful and disheartening, but I am rather amused by it. I find myself fixating for hours over who to date, what to wear, what to say to certain people like it's even important. I was talking to a friend over skype about the latest scenario I am playing out in my head, and his only response was "wow, your life's hard." His sarcasm and complete disregard for my latest issue really made me realize how ridiculous I have been living. No, I am not thinking about how to solve world peace or how to make the world a better place, I am obsessively worrying about the most trivial day-to-day problems. I might as well be awake at 2 am thinking about if teddy bears really do come alive at night, and if they do, what would Pinkball say to me? Does it bother him that I occasionally sleep with my back to him? Does he care that he only gets washed about once every two months? Should I be leaving out snacks or at least a step ladder for him to help himself out of my room? Do they really have a picnic? Maybe this will become my new latest fixation...might as well be if you only knew the other garbage that has been winding me up for all hours of the day/night.

I am also realizing that the trivial issues can no longer be kept just in my head, and I HAVE to talk them out with people. I can see their eyes glaze over and souls leave their bodies when it's happening, but it's hard to stop the word vomit. So now, I have extended my circle of friends and have these meaningless discussions on rotation, so no one friend hears the same issue more than once a week-ish.

So I have decided things need to change. Here is a list of things that might help me put perspective back in my life (please feel free to add any others in the comments)

- drink less. Much less.
- do volunteer work at a homeless shelter/drop in centre to really make me see other people are WAY worse off
- watch World Vision ads once a week for 30 minutes
- go out with friends more but not to pubs
- plan less time alone in my room to basically sit and rock...
- take up a hobby that involves a lot of concentration, like tight rope walking or taming wild animals
- stop eating nutella before bed...it gives me really muffed up dreams

Anyway, hopefully some perspective will also help me stay on top of this blog. Sorry folks, after this update, I can't even really make any excuses. You know I have been doing nothing better with my life, but it is what it is.